That was probably the scariest personal health experience I've ever had!
I literally thought I was dying. I called Lou and told him something was very wrong and I thought I was having a stroke. He told me to call 911, so I did.
Mom had stopped by my work to tell me Grandma is also in the hospital. While she was there my left eye felt like it was swimming in my head. She left, I went back to the computer and was typing when my left arm started feeling heavy and tingling, then I felt like there was a hot water balloon burst in my head and the hot water washed all over the left side of my body and I was dizzy. That is when I called Lou.
By the time the EMT's got there I starting to feel better. they insisted I go to the hospital. By the time I got there I was feeling normal. While there I had a few more instances where I felt a wave of warmness, kind of a tightness in my head and chest. Just a really weird feeling.
The Dr. finally came in and told me he did not think I had a stroke, but he didn't know what it was. I could be admitted and have a CT scan, MRI, etc...to try to figure it out, or I could go home and come back if I had symptoms again. I chose to go home, against Lou & Dad's wishes.
On the way home I was very very tired. I went in to the church to finish up some things and felt great while there. On my drive home from Bowen I was feeling off again, I was concerned that I made the wrong decision, that I was wrong leaving the hospital and wrong for telling Lou not to come home (he was in Nebraska), nervous about being home alone with the kids....
On the drive I was talking to a friend on the phone and she thought maybe I had an anxiety attack. I got to thinking about it and decided I guess that's possible. But don't you have to be feeling anxiety? B/c I didn't feel like I was having anxiety. She said no, it can just be a culmination of things. When I got home Beth was here with the kids (THANK YOU BETH), I asked her what an anxiety attack feels like, she said "just like that." She also told me that she told Jim and my dad that she thought I was having that.
While Beth and April were here I felt fine again.
They left, I went to bed, and had to get up b/c I felt like I was being drowned. As soon as I got up I was fine.
Today I feel very very tired, heavy chested sometimes and I have a dull headache. Mostly OK, but just a little "off". I feel like I need a xanax (although I have never taken any nerve medication in the past)
I have been thinking about what I have been stressing/worrying/thinking about.
Allie's heart being broken
Allie's headache and hospital visit
My grandparents in the nursing home
My Grandpa in the hospital after bladder cancer surgery didn't go quite as planned
Our Plymouth house being destroyed
Organizing After Prom
2 girls going to prom
Allie's heart during prom/after prom
Medical bills
& I woke up yesterday wanting to just play hookie, then I remembered I HAD to go to work b/c it was newsletter day (my LEAST favorite day of the month!) and I had to do finance stuff. & then mom came in to tell me my other Grandma is in the hospital b/c they think she had a stroke.
So I guess I can see how I might be stressed. I have always been able to deal with a great amount of stress in the past. I do a lot, I have active kids, I like a project. I am always busy and somewhat stressed.
I hope this NEVER happens again. Thinking you're dying is a very scary feeling!
