I'm out!

15 days and I will have been a mom for 20 years. After 20 years you'd think I'd have a little better handle on it. Nope. Still NO CLUE!
I gave it all I had. I have proven without a doubt that I suck at it. This sucks most b/c I really tried. This might be the thing I wanted most to be good at, but I'm not.
If you aren't good at something after 20 years then you might as well just give it up!
If I could physically leave without it causing issues I totally would. I would pack up and leave it all behind, or maybe not even pack.
Allie doesn't want me. Alexis doesn't need me. Lou and Justin proved they can get along just fine without me. I am irrelevant to any of their lives.

When I started this that is't what I was going to type. I was going to talk about all things I'm doing wrong, but ultimately, even I am tired of hearing about that. The list is exhausting.
Every day I try. Every day I get up and do it again. Every day I get the same result. I don't have many days left in me.